The Rockstar's Need YOU

I cannot even explain to you how hard it is for me to put up this post. On so many levels, it terrifies me. I know that I am opening myself up to the criticism of those who think we should not be adding to our family. It puts us in a place of vulnerability.

After so many losses, I am afraid to lose again. And by posting about it, I am allowing each of you to be apart of that pain, fear, and loss.

But, God has not released us from stopping. And so we press on. Some of you may not understand that, but we will do what God call us to do - regardless of the cost.

Very soon, a baby boy will be born. The mother that currently carries him in her womb is incarcerated. If a family is not found, he will be placed in a foster home. We want to be his family. I want to be there when he is born. I want him to go from his birthmother's womb, to his forever mother's arms. He is coming very soon. I don't know the day yet. But, I am told he will be here at any given moment.

What stands in the way of us being his family is money. I hate that it is always money.

But, the way I have chosen to look at it, is that right now what stands between me and my son, is ransom. He is being held at ransom. And I don't know about you, but I would give ANYTHING if my child was being held ransom.

This baby has a grim future. There are no other families waiting for him. We are it.

I am pleading with you blog family to help us be united with our son. He is the brother we have prayed for for our son J-man. The child we have known has been missing from our family for the past year.

We need an absolute miracle here. And there isn't a lot of time. If we cannot raise $7,000 ( for legal expenses) in time , then the baby will be born and placed in a foster home. I want him to be placed in his forever home. We need to raise this money before he is born. Since his birthmother is in jail, this is a for sure adoption placement.

I am not going to lie. I am afraid. I am afraid to love him and lose him. I am afraid that the money will not come in. I am afraid to believe we may actually get him. I am so very afraid.

But, I am chosing to stand on faith. We are chosing to believe he IS our son. That God WILL show Himself faithful. That all of our losses were not in vain. And that the child we have prayed for , will finally come home. In fact - we are so believing these things, that we have chosen a name for him already. A name God gave us for our next son. " Malachi" - meaning My Messenger. For short we will call him "Kai." His message - that every life matters.

Pray with us. Pray for us. Pray for Kai.

And if you can find it in your heart to be apart of a miracle, please consider donating. No amount is too small. $5, $10 - whatever you feel led to give. It all counts and will quickly add up. If everyone reading this made just one small donation, Kai WILL come home. I am believing he will.

Please blog about our need. Please post links on your facebook. Please help us bring Kai home.

We are believing for this miracle to occur in the next 24 hours.

(If the money cannot be raised in time, all donations will be returned to each person. Your money will be saved in an account and only used when all money is raised and the adoption can be completed.)